Avoiding My Own Desire

Desires of life
which I can see
come true to others
but not to me

all called a beauty
seems so far away
all I find is me
in utter dismay

i love many
but never get it back
open my arms to colors
but all i get is black

ppl call me weird
ppl call me weak
ppl laugh at me
and call me a freak

those are the ppl
i love & care
never told them i do
& dont even dare

sitting besides me
they laugh at me & have fun
is there sumone different
no, there's none

sometimes i think i am
falling in love again
but cant take words of deceit
& the unbearable pain

'cause life without love
is better than a faithless heart
the more i get close to someone
the more i try to stay apart

though all i want is love
from the one whom i admire
but all am doing is just

avoiding my own desire